money pt 3

I have no idea why but I did my last post on humor instead of the narrator's voice, so I guess this post will be about the narrator's voice instead of humor.

"Lorne had gone on to explore Garfield's sumptuous lifestyle, the art galleries he superintended in Paris and Rome, his opera-nut vacations in Palma and Beirut, his houses in Tuscany, the Dordogne and Berkeley Square, his Barbadian hideaway, his stud ranches, his Manhattan helicopter pad… And as this fizzy old dog bayed and barked into the night, I spared a tender thought for my project, my poor little project, which I had nursed in my head for so long now. Good Money would have made a good short, with a budget of, say, £75,000. Now that it was going to cost fifteen million dollars, though, I wasn't so sure. But I must keep a grip on my priorities here. A good film didn't matter. Good Money didn't matter. Money mattered. Money mattered."

In this passage, John Self is sentimentally thinking to himself about his movie while Lorne Guyland has been droning on in the background unnecessarily and absurdly trying to change different parts of it. The way he describes the movie as "my project, my poor little project", shows the reader that he thinks of the movie as he would a small puppy who is being abused. In this case, the abuser is clearly Lorne Guyland, who is completely changing his whole character to better fit his maniacally huge ego, even though his alterations would make the movie not make sense at all. John Self's musing here also somewhat contradict his money obsessed lifestyle when he says that the considerably larger budget is actually detrimental to the quality of the end product. However, he immediately contradicts this single reasonable thought in the next sentence, saying that making a good movie didn't matter, the movie itself doesn't even matter. Only money matters to him. I thought this part was interesting because I felt like when he says "But I must keep a grip on my priorities here. A good film didn't matter. Good Money didn't matter. Money mattered. Money mattered."he is trying to convince himself of this, especially at the end when he repeats the line, "Money mattered" twice. Is there a small part of him that we will see later that actually knows that money is not really everything?